Today you're 6! I use to think I knew you so well, like the back of my hand. Now, now you are starting to guard your thoughts and heart just a bit. Enough to give yourself that small bit of independence that all little girls start to crave as they start to grow. It made me so smile when I noticed that you had "secret notes" that were only for you and your friends. You wanted to dance around your room with your door closed, instead of open like so many years before. You search out things that your deem beautiful and fit your style. All these things are so new to me and I'm sure for you as well.
I caught you the other day just laying in your room, on the floor just listening to the radio and bopping your head back and forth on your pillow. I saw a glimpse into my future of this same scene playing out in front of me when your a teenager. Only this time you wont just be listening to whatever stations is on your radio but what ever is on your ipod.
Your dad and I see you so many times through out the day and say to one another "When did she get to looking so old?" Sometimes I can see what the 16 year old version of yourself will look like and it's beautiful and scary all at once.
You have navigated 1st grade carefully the past couple of weeks. You have a hard time focusing and following directions, these are all things you must work on. However, you have started to surround yourself with a wonderful group of girls. This makes me so proud, as strong friendships are what will get you through those difficult days in school, when I can't be there and probably when you wont want me there. I feel good about your choices of who you believe are good people. More is not better, loyal, friendly and caring are better in your eyes.
You are, I belive, the 2nd youngest kid in your grade, it shows sometimes, however you are keeping up with your work and each new assignment that is brought home you are showing more confidence that you can do this.
You and I are starting to have more and more conversations about things you are interested in, how things work and you are very curious about how Daddy and I met and if I had boyfriends when I was younger. You claim that you like everyone and that you have no crushes on anyone, but this is showing me that you are noticing things you like and don't like. You want what Daddy and I have and even though we are thrilled we are showing both you and Arlo how love and commitment works, we are praying the boy craze stage is far, far into the future. Here's hoping right?
We love you little one, we love your tenacity to negotiate your way around a road block. How you love to be around your friends but have no problem going off on your own to forge your own way. You are learning each day how to handle your anxiety about going into school on your own and each day you walk or ride your bike home on your own, with Arlo and I following. Dad loves that you're still his little girl for a few more years and I love that you and I have a relationship that is growing each day. There will be rough days and then there will be days of great celebration and as long as you keeping doing what you are doing I think those of celebration will far out way the rough ones.
This will always be one of my favorite days of my life, the day you were born. The day you gave me the title of Mother. You were just so darn cute with your dark curly hair and stork bites on your forehead. Your stork bites may have faded and your hair has grown darker over the years but our love for you and our gratefulness for your birthday multiplies daily.
Happy Birthday Sweet Cecelia.
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