Cecelia,
My sweet girl it's been awhile. Life lately has been busy and chaotic and you, like always, have taken everything in stride. You have always been able to adapt to change, even from the time you were a baby. You thrive on routine, like most children, but if we were to switch it up you never faulter. Things are going to be changing again and I don't have any doubts that you will take it in stride. I guess my only fear is that because of your ability to adapt so well to change, your Dad and I might overlook those little signs you show us when you are in need.
I will try my very best to make sure you are given adequate attention but know this above everything else, you are so deeply loved by both your Dad and myself. We've made mistakes and have fumbled along the way as parents, and will most likely continue to do so until the end.
I remember the day we brought you home and how your Dad and I kept saying "I can't believe she is ours." You slept through the night at 3 weeks and you knew your Dad's voice from the minute you were born. I remember laughing when they handed you back to us and he started talking and your little head was moving around trying to find him. It was instantaneous.
You gave us 3 wonderful years of learning how to be parents to you and it will forever be our foundation for how we handle most situations with you and your brothers. When Arlo was born, you enjoyed holding him for a few minutes and then you were ready to move on to something else. You didn't really have any interest in him until he was a bit more mobile. That didn't mean you didn't love him dearly. If he cried you made sure to tell anyone that he needed something, even if you didn't know what. You liked being wherever he was but just in your space. These days you don't like being somewhere without him. If he is gone, you will continue to ask about him. Going to school together has made both of you have a bit more confidence when you both walk in together. It's been an amazing friendship to watch blossom.
With this little brother you are more aware of what happens and are eagerly looking forward to being able to help. In fact you have told mulitple people how it will be your job to keep an eye on him, so Arlo doesn't hurt him. This probably will be a big job for you but also I think you will show a good amount of kindness towards the baby as well. I'm looking forward to seeing the type of relationship you will have with this little guy. You are very special to get the opportunity to have not only your Dad's unconditional love in your life but the additional love of 2 other men. I'm sure at times this will not always feel like the case and I apologize in advance for those high school years that they will most likely make a living hell for potential boyfriends. Just remember it is all out of love and a bit of fun. I guess you will just have to remember that you have me on your side, always.
I love you Cecelia, all the way through my bones. Like the ivy that grows on our fence, it takes hold and never goes away.
Love you,
Mama
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