These two get out of school for the summer starting tomorrow afternoon. For most of the year I was so concerned about what we were going to do all summer with all 3 kids home, ALL THE TIME! But in the past couple weeks my heart has had a calming about having them all home. I hope it gives them time to bond and grow together.
This week hasn't been that great, in fact, it has been terrible! The worst part about the whole thing is it's completely my own fault and note it truly must be if I admit it. I mean I didn't just mess up a tiny bit, I messed up in like a monumental way. Lord, if I could actually do it you would be seeing me kicking myself repeatedly. In fact I offered the option up to Nate and in true Nate fashion he just laughed at me and surprisingly declined. This is no laughing matter and my husband laughs.
Do you ever have something just awful happen and that awful thing was your doing to begin with and then due to that awful thing it allows you to open up in a very raw and vulnerable way to your spouse? No? Maybe it's just a strange thing I do. Also can I just give a straight up praise to that man that chained himself to me and all the crazy that comes along with that! Another shout out to that man because he finally asked me to trim his beard last weekend and you can now see where his chin is and it's glorious and he looks 30 again and not 50! I would post the picture he sent to me, to show all the parents at Cece's softball game but he would probably be really embarrassed. Buuut he also never reads this soo...
You're welcome and I really like it when he wears his bandana. To much information?
Anyway, due to that stupid awful thing that I did earlier in the week it gave me pause and a lot of reflection in regards to what I'm doing. Well I know what I'm doing, I mother, I wife, I sister, I daughter and I friend the heck out of life lately but I know I have a calling and sometimes when you're almost 31 you start to think maybe I should start freaking listening to that darn thing. However, due to my lack luster track record I'm going to keep it close to my heart until I think about it A LOT. I'm not planning on jumping head first into anything, that's stupid, I've done enough stupid for one lifetime, I'm also not even close to being done in that department. I am going to do a lot of reflecting and research and planning before doing anything.
I'm going to finish up by flat out apologizing for writting the most vague post ever. That was a bunch of nothing-ness you all just read through and I greatly appreciate it. On the brightside you got some cute pictures of my favorite people and to make sure we didn't forget anyone, Sir Henry and his hair.
I call him Sir Henry Nash, King of Kings because look at the crown people! I have one son with a crown of gold and another with his own structure working on top of his noggin.
I mean for real where did this kid come from? Don't answer that everyone already knows all about that funny birth story. Oh you don't know? Consider yourself lucky, I'm not shy when it comes to matters of birthing children or walking around half naked in front of my Dad right after either. You're welcome again for that Papa G!
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