Sister

I’m not sure if I have mentioned this before but I have an older sister, Kassie. She is 2 years older then me, however sometimes the roles of big sister/little sister have been reversed between us. Our relationship wouldn’t be what you would call very sisterly until about 3 years ago when I was pregnant with Cecelia. I had no interest in her, in fact I very well considered her an idiot through out my junior high and high school years and even a few after. There is some harsher words that come to mind when I think of those years and about my sister, but she already knows themJ.


We both have the same ability to build walls around our feelings to protect ourselves from harm, however we just build them differently. She likes to hid them by reveling (usually) to much information about some situations and not enough about others in hope that she had thrown people off her track. I simply don’t put that much effort into shutting people out.

There are many differences between my sister and I and not only by our appearances. She has the curliest hair, where I have only a few natural waves. She has freckled skin and I have more of an olive tone. Some say they can tell right away that we are sisters, however we have never believed this to be true. As far as behavior is concerned she was always the honor student, top athlete, social butterfly, and very much the people pleaser. I on the other hand struggled through high school by my own fault, had no desire to be a part of a team, was perfectly pleased with my circle of friends and actually on many occasions had the tendency to displease those around me. The one thing we did have in common was are ability to not understand one another, and to not try to either. We lived in to separate worlds and were very independent women who thought of having a sister as nothing more as mostly annoying and scarcely of any use.

Over the past 3 years much has changed we finally started to understand each other and actually cared enough to listen and be apart of each others lives. She is now more of a companion and friend as well as a sister. And to my surprise I have relied on her more in the past few months then I have ever in my 25 years of life. I don’t feel like I missed those years with my sister because I believe I would have hurt her more emotionally back in those years with my hurtful words then helped her. I don’t think I would have ever appreciated her as much either.

Please don’t misunderstand my opinion of my sister in our younger years as unloved, in fact she out of a handful of people would I have put before myself back then and today as well. She always held a place in my heart it just was tucked away and shielded so that she couldn’t hurt it like I had seen her do with so many others. I felt it was best to keep it safe away.

She has been an amazing Aunt to my daughter who was partially named after her, has on numerous occasions listened to the phone call about “how my husband did the dumbest thing today” or “I might just pull my hair out”. I also have seen how she has so much love to give to those around her and sometimes she shows it in the weirdest of ways, but it’s love none the less.

She may be hard to love and difficult to like but she is my sister and at times I would have loved to beat her with a stick, but if you were to hurt her in anyway don’t doubt for a moment I wouldn’t turn around and beat you with that same damn stick. Kassie, however, is not a weakling that you may push around, she sometimes is to honest for her own good, but she never intentionally would hurt you if she could help it.

My dear sister has come along way since her younger days and I’m everyday thankful for her being such a huge fixture in my life and as well as my daughters. She has also given both Nathan and I one of the greatest gifts, she is making us a niece or a nephew. We are so happy to soon be and Aunt and Uncle and for C to have baby cousin, who she is very thrilled about to play with very soon. Congratulations Andy and Kassie we are so truly happy for you new little blessing!