To my Son

Baby Boy:

You will be arriving soon and the anticipation is starting to be building within our walls of our small home. You Daddy is anxiously waiting for the phone call from me to make his way home from work or head to the hospital. He is beyond excited to see who you look like and what crazy antics you will come up with that he can possibly match.

Your big sister is asking everyday when she will be able to hold you and look at you. Whether she is as gentle with you as we hope we know you will roll with whatever she may throw at you (I mean that literally). She loves you but she also is not use to being around little babies just large toddlers.

As for me every time I sit down to write this out and figure out how I feel about you joining our family I can’t help but get tongue tied and confused about what I want to put down. Words are just not enough to convey how astonished I am to bring a son into this world and into our little family. I already have an intense love for you little boy and I don’t have a clue what dynamic you will bring to our home. However no matter what hoops you make your Dad and I jump through to make you happy and to continue this life we are living you will be the third most wanted person in my life and even though that may seem weird to hear you father, sister and you are all equally loved by me.

I have so much anticipation about how I will feel when I see you with your Dad for the first time or when your sister kisses you for the first time, it gets me emotional just envisioning the moments that are yet to come and I am already sad to know that they will soon pass and we will be moving on to more milestones. Our days together are numbered before I must share you with the world and even though I know so many people are waiting to meet you I will miss having you all to myself. I haven’t been alone for 9 months and even though I know you will be by my side shortly for years to come there is nothing like feeling you roll around in my belly or give a swift kick to my side when you sister is sitting on you.

I have my ideas about the type of boy you will be and just how you will follow in your father’s footsteps but since I’m fully aware that children never do what you think they will I will keep them to myself for now. There are a few things I’m almost certain of:

1. You will be born with force and assurance

2. You will have just as many if not more stork bites on your little newborn body (just like you sister)

3. You will love as hard as you play

4. You will have your father as tightly wrapped around your finger as your sister does (and he will love every minute of it)

5. You will make me cry from pure happiness

6. You will be the first trip to the emergency room

7. You will make our hearts grow in size when we set our eyes on you and that feeling is not something we are prepared for but are certainly excited about.

Just remember son you are loved by us and have been waiting for you for a very long time. We know you will arrive when you and my body are ready and not a moment before. So continue to grow but eventually little man you will make your way into this crazy world and we will be ready.

Love-

Mama