6 years

What hasn't happend in 6 years (well I'm sure a lot)? 1 home 2 babies an uncountable amount of fights and even higher amount of apologies. But were still here wer're still trucking along and dreaming of the future. I think that is such a big thing for us, when we always speak of the future we are always considering the other is there by our side. There is no thought or idea that goes with out the other's support and blessing.

Life has been sweet and life has been difficult, it's how we see to guide our family and our relationship through the good and the bad that makes us the strong unit that we are.

There is a complimentary aspect to our relationship; you are always the positive optimistic side of everything. Everyone is good and everything will work itself out, and if not well we will go from there. Then there is me, I'm everything not listed above. I'm worse case senerio thinker, life will be unbearable if this or this happens. I'm the other end of the spectrum. Some how we make it work and balance each other out and hopefully our children will be a good mix of the both of us.

Life has not worked out as planned 90% of the time for us, and we are still ending phone calls with "I love you" and holding hands in the car and hugs always make things easier to handle.

Please understand that there has been times when ringing your neck has seemed like a great idea to handle my anger or frustration and then you laugh at me, because obivoiusly I'm over reacting and obviously I'm not strong enough to physically hurt you and I always end up laughing at the though of what that might look like.

I always forgive you before I'm even done being mad at you. You are always unscathed by my wrath and I'm so glad you understand that a 5 minute space always gives me a bit more perspective. Even though 2 minutes in you are peeking into see if I'm "over it", and I scowl and you grin and I laugh and well 5 minute space usually ends there.

We have made two of the cutest and full of persoanlity kids and you shine through in them everyday. Your influence as there father does not go unseen. I know you were raised by a wonderful man as well and it shows as you guide our children. You may no tbe the most protective father as you throw our children in the air and encourage them to ride their bikes down stairs but you will be the first one to comfort them when they cry and to lift their spirits when they are down.

Our daughter has many male influences in her life but you are by far the one she speaks of everyday, the man she will base her future relationships off of and of course the one man who knows will never break her heart. I know you hold the role of main man in her life very high in your list of priorities and I know you will never come to terms when the day comes and she brings her future husband home. She is your shadow, you jump across the river she will do her best to follow, she has no fear and I believe it's because she knows you will always catch her. In your eyes you will never let her down.

Our boy, our sweet golden boy looks identical to you and even though you are not with us everday still has preference for you over me. He snuggles into you when he is not happy or to tired to fall asleep on his own and you are there to soothe him back to sleep. I know you relate to him and all the medical rollercoster we have been through with him and you have the most empathy and pride for how well he has done. I know you know how it feels to be poked and prodded. Your first few years of life were not the easiest either, but you are here and that always gave me comfort. I worry about this boy and you've seen how it affects me. This is where the balance we have with our personalitites has come out in full force, you will not allow anything to bring this boy down (because who would dare try) and I just thiink of how I can protect him (because I think everything will try to hurt him).

When our children are grown and need us less and less, it will be far more difficult for you than for me because they want and need you far more than myself. I never think this is a bad thing, I know I'm a good mother, I know I am doing everything possible to raise good people, but you; you are their light and right now there absolute best part of their weekends. Hopefully one day you can be their best part of their everyday.

When you became a father it did not make me love you more, I knew you would succeed at that before you even knew it, it's the way we have come through those most difficult of places that has made me love and want you more.

We have weaknesses and we have strengths and knowing how to play towards them has always came nautrually to us.

I love you more than any words can describe and living my life along side of you will always be my greatest pleasure.

I love you.

Happy Anniversary.

Tory