Today...

The past few days have been pretty terrible for me, just bad luck and feeling all around crappy. However, today I woke up with my family all under one roof. Our typical morning frantic yelling, music playing, hungry Arloboy demanding food, Cece missing a shoe and Nate waiting till the last possible minute to wake up. I didn’t care, I didn’t care that, like most days, I wasn’t going to leave when I wanted to, that I didn’t get a chance to make C a lunch or comb Arlo’s hair.

I did however get to kiss each of my kids 3 different times and was given hugs while they hustled out the door with their Dad. I got to wrap my arms around the man I love and kiss him good-bye before he grabbed our children’s hands and walked out the door. Today so many people lost their lives and their loved ones will no longer get that chance that I got this morning. To kiss, hug or say I love you to those they have lost.

I am so grateful, each and every day for the life that I’m still living. I may not always feel the best, I may get frustrated and angry but I always remember that I’m HERE. That my family is HERE and they are safe and healthy.

So today along with every other day I am not taking my life for granted and all the blessings that I have received, even though sometimes I don’t believe I deserve. But I’m selfish and I will take what I’m given and hold on to it tight and not give it up for anything.

I won’t ever forget, not even if I wanted too. To honor those that gave their lives, who have continued to give their lives, I will continue to live mine to the best of my ability because if we don’t, then what is all this worth in the end?