My boy, my little volcano.
You make my mind wander and my heart race.
The things that I imagine you achieving in your lifetime are endless.
Those things are nothing extraordinary and everything all in one.
You are an observer by nature. You are cautious when you are in new situations, but throw that caution to the wind once you are comfortable.
Your ability to be completely impassive to all situations is unique for such a small person.
You are comfortable with who you are and what your intentions are when you are going about your day.
You love to challenge us. Seeing how far you can push your boundaries before you are reprimanded for your actions. The most interesting part of that is that you are waiting for us to strike, to acknowledge that you have done something that is not okay. Once you are told what is expected of you, even if it's getting swatted on the behind you do not show much reaction. There is usually never any crying or tantrums. The only time we can get a real reaction out of you, is if you are waiting to eat and we are not getting you food fast enough. Other than that you move on about your day. I have yet to figure it out. I understand that I most likely never will.
This I thought was just simply what being a boy was all about, however I noticed that it's simple just you. You are unique little man.
You carry yourself with assurance and you don't care if who you are fits into what people expect of you. I think that's remarkable and I hope you don't ever change for anyone unless you are changing for yourself.
You can be very angry most of the time mostly at no one and mostly at everyone. You are a walking contradiction little boy.
You have a hard time communicating that towards us so in most cases you lash out with your hands.
We have been working on this and you have been doing much better, but I think it will be something you will always have to fight against.
Anger will always be your default emotion, much like mine is.
But with all that anger comes some of the sweetest personality when you are around those you truly love.
You have your favorites and that's normal, we all do.
You enjoy being around your Uncle Trevor, and mainly I believe it's because you two have
similar souls. That's just fine because your Uncle Trevor is a good man. You trust him completely and that is something that you do not give away easily.
Having you as my child has taught me lessons that I didn't think anyone could teach me, after being set in my own stubborn ways for so long.
Loving someone is easy and hard. Which in all situations where love is concerned it requires constant work. Work that comes easily to me when it revolves around you, your sister and your Dad.
You however, have given me that ability to let my very guarded walls down and let you in. Because you are so much like me (personality wise) I think it's my way of getting over my issues so that I can help you be the best person you can be.
I know I can't do that by only being present and honest half of the time.
So for you Arloboy, I'm completely vulnerable. It's scary and uncomfortable but if that means I'm being the best Mom for you and your sister that I can be then I will be less afraid and more comfortable.
I enjoy your reactions even though they are completely different than your sisters, they are honest. I would rather have your honest opinion than a guarded one. So we embrace what you give us and accept your for everything that makes you our boy.
We wouldn't want it any other way.
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